"Didn't You Know I Had to be in My Father's House"

I don't know how, but I..no, MARY lost our son earlier today. We were all walking together in Jerusalem one moment and the next...it was just me and Mary. I don't blame her for losing him (even though she was the one walking by him,) I take full responsibility for my (and my wife's) actions. Mary became hysterical and started to cry, I told her we would find him or he would find us. Honestly, I wanted to cry too because I was worried that Jesus was in danger. However, I couldn't cry because I'm Mary's rock...her shoulder to lean on...I had to be strong for her to reassure her Jesus was safe. After searching for what seemed like forever, we found him...not just him - me and Mary's son but him - the Child of God that Gabriel instructed me to name Jesus. I've never been more proud of my son. He was PREACHING TO THE PREACHERS, :)...my 12 year old son teaching religious scholars about God and faith. When he saw us, he simply smiled as if he thought we were supposed to know he was here and he said: "Didn't you know I had to be in my Father's house?" He walked over to us and hugged us, at that moment I knew he was God's son, Our Savior...The Messiah!

Visit From the Angel Gabriel

All day, I've been going back and forth about canceling my marriage. I decided to sleep on it, I'm repeatedly saying: "I love Mary, God will guide my decision. I love Mary, God will guide my decision. I love Mary, God will guide my decision..." Zzzzz! "Joseph the Carpenter," an angellic voice says to me. "Yes, who calls my name?" "Marry Mary for she has done you no wrong. It is true she is pregnant and will soon conceive a son, nevertheless she is still a virgin." "With all due respect, for I still know not who you are but how can this be? How can my wife be a virgin and pregnant? God's creation in her womb is living proof, she is no longer a virgin." The angel smiles, "Ahhh, God's creation...you have no idea, Child of God. Mary is a virgin, because it is by the Grace of God that she will conceive not from the seed of any man. The Holy Spirit impregnated her, so love her, cherish her and the baby boy....marry her, for it is the Will of God...marry her...marry her...marry her" The angel's words are still in my ears, even though I am no longer in a dream. I shall marry her, for she has done no wrong and it is the Will of God. Furthermore, since it is by God's Grace that she is pregnant I will keep her pure until the Father's son is born.

My Righteous Intention

My beautiful soon-to-be wife is pregnant...however I am not the baby's father. It is customary for a man to have his wife, or soon-to-be wife stoned so that the public can see her wrong-doing and so that other women won't follow her example...I'm not going to publicly shame Mary, even though she's pregnant with God knows who's seed, I love her! I don't feel she deserves to be shamed publicly; I could be wrong but I think she feels bad about this. I don't want to make matters worst. I've been crying all day and I feel the more I cry the more I forgive Mary. I'm not going to marry her...however I won't get her stoned and I'll continue to be a significant figure in her and her child's life. I'll always love her and I wouldn't be able to look in the mirror if she was killed on behalf of my anger to not being her baby's father.